as thoughts gather
hi i'm abby. i have many thoughts, often at night. this is a side blog that these thoughts end up collecting at. late night blogging is my speciality, i made this blog so i could feel free to throw anything i felt like on here so don't expect anything.enjoy

Fri, 29th of August



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Fri, 29th of August


These, for me, are the two most depressing paintings in western history. They were painted by post-impressionist Henry de Toulouse-Lautrec, a man who, due to inbreeding, was born with a genetic disorder that prevented his legs from growing after they were broken. After being so thoroughly mocked for is appearance, he became an alcoholic, which is what eventually caused his institutionalization and death. His only known romantic relations were with prostitutes.

And then he paints something like this which is so beautiful and tender and sentimental. It seems like the couple in bed really loves each other—cares about each other. Wakes up happy to look at each other. And I see that love and passion and I wonder how lonely he must have been. I wonder how he could paint something like this without it breaking his heart. 

Maybe they say artists should create what they know, not because its unbelievable when they extend themselves beyond their experiences, but because when they pull it off with such elegance, it’s so damn unbearable to look at. I hate thinking of Lautrec, wondering about the lovers he created and knowing it was beyond his experience. Creating something that he knows is beautiful and knows he’ll never really understand. 

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Mon, 25th of August



Aymeline Valade in ‘Saint Laurent’ directed by Bertrand Bonello

y’all don’t pay enough attention to her smh


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Mon, 25th of August


the “you live with your parents” insult is really flaccid because a metric shitton of cultures don’t see “leave the house forever” as some grandiose moment of liberation that’s so important to the development of a person that it has to happen as fast as possible. until i came to the USA i didn’t know a single person who was pressured by their parents to leave the house because they’re “too old to stay there” or whatever. in puerto rico it is really common to stay with your parents until they and you are both stable enough that you can leave. whaddaya know, there are cultures that don’t place a stigma on being poor or wanting to care for your family or needing your family to care for you for some other reason.

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Mon, 25th of August

Beyoncé’s full performance at the 2014 VMA’s

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Thu, 21st of August


Words cannot express how much I love this kid. 

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Tue, 19th of August

@hot ppl : Piss Off

Tue, 19th of August


i will never stop

Tue, 19th of August


Pink Casio SK-1 Sampling Keyboard

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Sun, 17th of August
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